The Heroine’s Path – birthing Fierce Soul Freedom™

Every day starts with a wake up from a dog 🙂  

As I roll out of bed, I begin most of my days with a creative spiritual practice: writing, meditating or movement.  I am devoted to me and to remembering and rooting into what I feel, what I need, what fulfills me, and what I can create.  Remembering I am a soul-full being in a human body – a woman with passion, fire, intention, soul, and quite a few swear words.

I might read a little (ha- a lot!), check the latest US legislative and presidential hijinx, work on plans for a political or volunteer project, and go through my to do list and inbox.  I’ll then break for a walk in the woods with my dogs and do some weeding or walk in my labyrinth.

I learned I could change the world while weeding my garden…

I have invested my time and energy in finding my power: my soul, my spirit, my connection to the Great Mother, to the Divine, and to create a partnership with my healthy masculine (yep we all have it), while working to dismantle the patriarchy.  I have been listening, learning, and growing in my connection to my heart – my source of intuition.

A few years ago things didn’t feel this easy or this rooted.  With one sentence from an ob-gyn I fell suddenly and drastically into the depths of despair:  my first pregnancy, my first child, my daughter, was given a fatal diagnosis in-utero, at just 20 weeks.

I was offered an abortion on the spot. Because of all the unknowns, I carried my dying daughter for another 10 weeks.

At that early point I wasn’t even sure that I wanted to be a mother – I was afraid that I wouldn’t know how, or even could be.  I was a firm believer in all things masculine- I was conditioned and swept up in our cultures’ outward drive to serve the patriarchy.  I knew how to play a role of the toxic masculine: don’t connect to emotions, have certainty that you have all the answers, aggressively strive for outward success, be punitive, detached, and oh-so-demanding and aggressive.

But the new question was: how can I mother this child in the midst of my grief, while others looked at me with pity and despair, when this is all I get? (Her diagnoses included the tragic number of a 95% mortality rate before birth.)

I was growing her to die. How could I mother myself in this space of unrelenting, unpausing grief?

How could I still be a wife, a daughter, a sister, a friend, and someone who shows up to work and in the community when I carried the shame of my inability to create perfect life on my body like a scarlet letter?  I walked around every day with visible evidence of my failure, and personal judging shame about my abilities as a woman.

So what I really had, besides unconditional love for my perfectly imperfect daughter, was loss of a dream.  Dream of a life that looked like everyone else: the ability to be swept along and blindly do what was expected of me, what I was supposed to do, and how I was supposed to behave.  

How can I be a success when the rules are not made for me – and I get faulty playing pieces?

I’ve always believed that I quite didn’t understand all the rules to the game of life so I had to work harder than everyone else.

The rules: I wasn’t creative, I didn’t know what I wanted, I am from generations of alcoholic family members, I was the oldest, over-responsible child, five feet tall in a family of basketball playing giants, never learned how to listen to my heart, raised in a church who only prized the masculine voice, and I was born female.    

So here was my answer as I stepped into my dark night of the soul: surrender.

Let go of who I was so I could be.  So, I learned I could change the world while weeding my garden.

I could be with my daughter for all the minutes, weeks and months that she got to grow in my belly.  

I could be with my husband as he struggled with his own grief and loss, and his own formidable awakening and growth process (I couldn’t fix or make this easier for him).  

I could be with my extended family as they struggled to understand my new boundaries and ability to only care for me.  

I could be with not knowing, uncertainty, and the inability to ‘fix it’.  Wait, and be with the mystery of the unknown, and the arrival of the goddess Kali (who liberates the soul from the cycle of birth and death), and wait for the arrival of my daughter; Maddin Marie Blair.

I now know that the game is rigged.

The fucking patriarchy will get you every time.

Our world is centered on the white, male viewpoint, and it ends with me.

A women’s depth, truth, energy, and soul is my embodied spiritual practice.  My work is about birthing feminine-principled leadership as a guide on the descent to soul.  Subtle energy work and soul alchemy are the foundation of what I do.   Activist organizing for equality, equity, and justice is my soulfire.  Destroying the patriarchy and white supremacy by helping everyone, but particularly women and all who identify as women, reclaim their soul is the reason I get out of bed every day.

I am a witness, a sister-guide and a mentor.  I am a truthsayer, an experimenter, and a butt-kicker.  I am messy, and loud, and real, and full of contradictions.  No either/or propositions around me.  

Together, we will birth you into the life that is calling you.

Right now, everything around us feels like chaos.  Life is about change, and the systems that don’t serve everyone are crumbling. We are living the dark night of the soul, and the only way out is through – our collective Fierce Soul Freedom is on the other side.  Let’s hold hands and step over the threshold together.

Keep reading to see my official Bio below…

Jammi Hansen Blair is on a mission to create a soul awakening.  She is building a movement that turns ordinary women into extraordinary leaders – women who lead with purpose, passion, and soul-led authority. Dedicating her career and volunteer time to nonprofit organizations and activist movements, trying to change the world, Jammi has experienced first hand the limiting beliefs and self-defeating expectations that have stifled generations of women- and anyone who does not identify as male. She is a way shower and guide to many who are fed up with the patriarchy and want to create real change, now.

Jammi is a feminist with a deep passion for equality and equity. Having had 8 miscarriages in 5 years, she knows that a woman’s body is not a political agenda, and that activating the mystery of feminine principles will transform our world.

In January of 2017, as part of the Women’s March Movement, Jammi’s team built a small one-day city to support a gathering of 110,000 women and allies in Minnesota.  From 2017-2019, she dedicated her energy as the inaugural Board Chair for Women’s March Minnesota, creating an organization dedicated to protecting the rights of all women and working towards equality, equity and justice.

Jammi’s work is to help women (cis, trans, and non-binary folks who are comfortable in a space that centers the experience of women) heal so they can live and lead by honoring their internal compass. Based on our direct connection to the divine, her work is to birth Fierce Soul Freedom.  Her retreats, women’s circles and deeply transformative programs have impacted hundreds of women finding their power in their own personal Heroine’s Journey.

Jammi guides and coaches women to revolutionize the relationship she has with her own power, by growing her intuition, creativity, truth, and trust in her own inner wisdom.

Known as the “Non Profit Fixer,” Jammi has consulted with over 20 nonprofit organizations over 25 years and has worn many, many, hats; from Executive Director to envelope stuffer. 

She completed two years towards an MBA in nonprofit management from the University of St. Thomas, and has a BA in Speech Communications from the University of North Dakota. She recently completed a certificate in Transpersonal Psychology and is a Soul Studies Institute Transformation Life Coach.

Jammi is intimately aware of the relationship between passion, energy and fulfillment. Her extensive training includes: Integrated Energy Therapy, Reiki, Chakra Balancing, and Soul Path Healing. She is also an Intuitive Soul Call card reader, an Awesome Women’s Circle Facilitator, and is currently fulfilling her teaching requirements to be a certified Qoya teacher (feminine movement).

Jammi lives with her airline Captain husband and their beloved pup in the beautiful Midwest. If they are not grounded due to Covid19 they are avid sight-seekers, or she can be found in her garden where she grows “too much of everything”. A lifetime seeker, Jammi’s stack of books and lists of creative projects spill out of her studio.

 

I’d love to meet you!

I love to gather folks, and grow my friend community!  You can find me on Facebook and Instagram.  I’d love for you to say hello, and tell me how you are seeking your Fierce Soul Freedom!

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